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  The Shadow Of

  What Was Lost

  James Islington

  Copyright © 2014 James Islington

  All rights reserved.

  ISBN-13: 978-0-9925802-1-6

  For Sonja.

  Without your enthusiasm, love and support,

  this would never have been possible.

  TABLE OF CONTENTS

  - Prologue -

  - Chapter 1 -

  - Chapter 2 -

  - Chapter 3 -

  - Chapter 4 -

  - Chapter 5 -

  - Chapter 6 -

  - Chapter 7 -

  - Chapter 8 -

  - Chapter 9 -

  - Chapter 10 -

  - Chapter 11 -

  - Chapter 12 -

  - Chapter 13 -

  - Chapter 14 -

  - Chapter 15 -

  - Chapter 16 -

  - Chapter 17 -

  - Chapter 18 -

  - Chapter 19 -

  - Chapter 20 -

  - Chapter 21 -

  - Chapter 22 -

  - Chapter 23 -

  - Chapter 24 -

  - Chapter 25 -

  - Chapter 26 -

  - Chapter 27 -

  - Chapter 28 -

  - Chapter 29 -

  - Chapter 30 -

  - Chapter 31 -

  - Chapter 32 -

  - Chapter 33 -

  - Chapter 34 -

  - Chapter 35 -

  - Chapter 36 -

  - Chapter 37 -

  - Chapter 38 -

  - Chapter 39 -

  - Chapter 40 -

  - Chapter 41 -

  - Chapter 42 -

  - Chapter 43 -

  - Chapter 44 -

  - Chapter 45 -

  - Chapter 46 -

  - Chapter 47 -

  - Chapter 48 -

  - Chapter 49 -

  - Chapter 50 -

  - Chapter 51 -

  - Chapter 52 -

  - Chapter 53 -

  - Chapter 54 -

  - Epilogue -

  ACKNOWLEDGMENTS

  A big thank-you, firstly, is owed to all my alpha and beta readers - Ross, Nicki, Chiara, Aiden, Brett, Jeremy, Dean, David, Rex, Callum, Tim, Stuart and (of course) Sonja. It's no small commitment to test-read a book of this size, and their feedback proved invaluable in honing The Shadow Of What Was Lost.

  Thanks also go to Pat, who read what was a very rough first draft and still managed to spot the promise in amongst its many flaws. To this day it amazes me that despite how much more work the story needed, he somehow delivered his critique with enough encouragement and tact that I ended up being inspired rather than deflated.

  Finally, I'd like to thank my family for all their encouragement over the past couple of years - and in particular my wife, Sonja, whose love, constant optimism, and ability to soothe my fragile ego kept me sane as I worked through each draft. This book is dedicated to her, as it could not possibly have existed if it were not for her enduring support.

  - Prologue -

  Lightning.

  For a moment the waters of Eryth Mmorg were lit, roiling and churning as though a great knife had plunged deep into the pool’s murky heart. A dark wave shattered against a barely discernible outcrop of black rocks, hissing, spitting spray a hundred feet into the air before subsiding. The world flickered back into darkness, but the waves, if anything, increased their intensity. Another roared, hissed, sighed, even louder than the peals of thunder that followed. Another.

  Tal watched impassively from his rocky perch, high above even the spray. Only his cloak moved as it flowed out behind him, billowing and snapping in the gusting wind. Old eyes set against youthful features stared unblinking into the night, fixed upon the point where he knew the gaping maw of Eryth Mmorg lay. Another flash illuminated the oval of jagged rocks; the waves licked at them hungrily, waiting to devour any who ventured close.

  Behind him lay the flat, barren rock that was Taag’s Peak. No life grew there, not even the hard, poisonous foliage that survived elsewhere in the wilderness. The obsidian surface was worn smooth by the constant buffeting wind; twenty paces from Tal it ended in another precipice, almost as sheer as the one he currently overlooked. Few men could gain Taag’s Peak, and fewer still desired to.

  To the north, on the horizon beyond the pool, the darkness was suddenly broken by a dull red glow rising from Tawwas, last of the Broken Cities. Tal’s eyes cleared after a moment, flicked towards the light. The beacon seemed about to fade before blossoming into a ball of brilliant orange flame, searing light across the wastelands and burning into Tal’s head. He gasped, shutting his eyes for a moment, steadying.

  How long had he gazed into the depths of Eryth Mmorg? Too long; the alarm was raised and his flight discovered. A cold, sharp pain clawed at his chest, something he had not felt in some time. Fear.

  “Hold,” he murmured to himself, fixing his gaze once again upon the angry waters. “Hold.” It was very nearly done, despite his lapse in concentration.

  “You are running, Tal’kamar. I warned you against running.” The sound rumbled around the peak, a presence rather than a voice.

  Tal’s stomach twisted and he turned, searching for his pursuer.

  “I know the truth,” he said quietly. He could see it now, at the far end of the peak but crawling towards him. A shadow, darker than the rest. A being not quite there. His master.

  The creature chuckled, a sickening sound. “You do not know what truth is anymore. He was one man, Tal’kamar. He lied; you said it yourself. You slew him for his falsehood. You took his head and set it on a pike. You placed it at the Door of Iladriel as a reminder, for all to see! Do you not remember?” The shadow stopped, watching Tal. Waiting.

  Tal hesitated, staring for a long moment into the gloom.

  “Yes,” he whispered hoarsely. His master’s presence was almost overpowering; for a moment Tal wanted only to grovel before his lord, beg that all be forgiven.

  Then the moment passed, and he sensed a feeling of anticipation from the shadow – and something more, barely discernible. Something he had never felt before from his master.

  Nervousness.

  He continued, growing more confident with each word. “Yes,” he repeated slowly, “but I was mistaken. I followed the path he set me upon. I found proof.” He paused, his voice stronger now. “I went to Res Kartha. I asked the Lyth.” Stronger again. “I went to the Wells of Mor Aruil and spoke with the Keeper. I found Nethgalla at the Crossroads and tortured her until she told me all she knew.” Now he shouted, the rage of so many years finally released, a mighty roar that seemed to echo across all of Talan Gol and beyond. “I went deep beneath the mountains, beneath Ilin Tora itself. I found the Mirrors. I gazed into them and found one thing!” He stopped, panting, face twisted in grim triumph. “One truth above all others.”

  The shadow crept closer, menacing now, the silver gone from its voice. “What did you find, Tal’kamar?” it hissed mockingly.

  Tal drew a deep breath. “You are false.” He said it calmly, staring defiantly at the dark mass. “Completely, utterly false.”

  He turned, gesturing downward towards the waters. A bright blue circle began to glow just above the waves, spinning ever-faster. When he turned back the shadow was at his face, filling his vision, its breath a foul stench on the air. It laughed, a filthy sound that contained only contempt.

  “You cannot escape this place,” it snarled. “You cannot escape me.”

  For the first time in years, Tal smiled.

  “You are wrong. This time I go where Aarkein Devaed cannot follow,” he said softly.

  He stepped backward, over the
edge. Fell.

  The shadow slithered forward, watching as Tal passed through the Gate and beyond reach. The whirling ring of blue fire flickered white for but a moment; then it was gone, with no trace of it ever having existed.

  The creature stared at where it had been. The waves below were quieter now, as if appeased.

  Suddenly it understood.

  “The Waters of Renewal,” it hissed.

  Its screams seemed to fill the world.

  - Chapter 1 -

  The blade traced a slow line of fire down his face.

  He desperately tried to cry out, to jerk away, but the hand over his mouth prevented both. Steel filled his vision, grey and dirty. Warm blood trickled down the left side of his face, onto his neck, under his shirt.

  There were only fragments after that.

  Laughter. The hot stink of wine on his attacker's breath.

  A lessening of the pain, and screams - not his own.

  Voices, high-pitched with fear, begging.

  Then silence. Darkness.

  Davian's eyes snapped open.

  The young man sat there for some time, heart pounding, breathing deeply to calm himself. Eventually he stirred from where he'd dozed off at his desk and rubbed at his face, absently tracing the raised scar that ran from the corner of his left eye down to his chin. It was pinkish-white now, had healed years ago. It still ached whenever the old memories threatened to surface, though.

  He stood, stretching muscles stiff from disuse and grimacing as he looked outside. His small room high in the North Tower overlooked most of the school, and the windows below had all fallen dark. The courtyard torches flared and sputtered in their sockets, too, only barely clinging to life.

  Another evening gone, then. He was running out of those much faster than he would like.

  Davian sighed, then adjusted his lamp and began sifting through the myriad books that were scattered haphazardly in front of him. He'd read them all, of course, most several times. None had provided him with any answers - but even so he took a seat, selected a tome at random, and tiredly began to thumb through it.

  It was some time later that a sharp knock cut through the heavy silence of the evening.

  Davian flinched, then brushed a stray strand of curly black hair from his eyes and crossed to the door, opening it a sliver.

  "Wirr," he said in vague surprise, swinging the door wide enough to let his blond-haired friend’s athletic frame through. "What are you doing here?"

  Wirr didn't move to enter, his usually cheerful expression uneasy, and Davian's stomach churned as he suddenly understood why the other boy had come.

  Wirr gave a rueful nod when he saw Davian's reaction. "They found him, Dav. He's downstairs. They're waiting for us."

  Davian swallowed. "They want to do it now?"

  Wirr just nodded again.

  Davian hesitated, but he knew that there was no point delaying. He took a deep breath, then extinguished his lamp and trailed after Wirr down the spiral staircase.

  He shivered in the cool night air as they exited the tower and began crossing the dimly-lit courtyard. The school was housed in an enormous, Darecian-era castle; Davian had lived here all his life and knew every inch of these grounds, but tonight the high walls loomed ominously in the darkness.

  "Do you know how they caught him?" he asked.

  "He used Essence to light his campfire." Wirr shook his head, barely visible against the dying torches on the wall. "Probably wasn't much more than a trickle, but there were Administrators on the road nearby. Their Finders went off, and...." He shrugged. "They turned him over to Talean a couple of hours ago, and Talean didn't want this drawn out any longer than it had to be. For everyone's sake."

  "Won't make it any easier to watch," muttered Davian.

  Wirr slowed his stride for a moment, glancing across at his friend. "You could still take Asha up on her offer to replace you, if you wanted. I know it's technically your turn, but... nobody would blame you."

  "No." Davian shook his head firmly. "I can handle it. And anyway, Leehim's the same age as her - she knows him better than we do. She shouldn't have to go through that."

  "None of us should," murmured Wirr, but he nodded his acceptance and picked up the pace again.

  They made their way through the eastern wing of the castle and finally came to Administrator Talean's office; the door was already open, lamplight spilling out into the hallway. Davian gave a cautious knock on the doorframe as he peered in, and he and Wirr were beckoned inside by a sombre-looking Elder Olin.

  "Shut the door, boys," said the grey-haired man, forcing what he probably thought was a reassuring smile at them. "Everyone's here now."

  Davian glanced around as Wirr closed the door behind them, examining the occupants of the small room. Elder Seandra was there, her diminutive form folded into a chair in the corner; the youngest of the school's teachers was normally all smiles but tonight her expression was weary, resigned.

  Administrator Talean was present too, of course, his blue cloak drawn tightly around his shoulders against the cold. He nodded to the boys in silent acknowledgement, looking grim. Davian nodded back, even after three years still vaguely surprised to see that the Administrator was taking no pleasure in these proceedings. It was sometimes hard to remember that Talean truly didn't hate the Gifted, as so many of his counterparts around Andarra did.

  Last of all, secured to a chair in the centre of the room, was Leehim.

  The boy was only one year behind Davian at fifteen, but the vulnerability of his position made him look much younger. Leehim's dark brown hair hung limply over his eyes, his head bowed and motionless. At first, Davian thought he must be unconscious.

  Then he noticed Leehim's hands. Even tied firmly behind his back, they were trembling.

  Talean sighed as the door clicked shut. "It seems we're ready, then," he said quietly. He exchanged glances with Elder Olin, then stepped in front of Leehim so that the boy could see him.

  Everyone silently turned their attention to Leehim; the boy's gaze was now focused on Talean and though he was doing his best to hide it, Davian could see the abject fear in his eyes.

  The Administrator took a deep breath.

  "Leehim Perethar. Three nights ago, you left the school without a Shackle and unbound by the Fourth Tenet. You violated the Treaty." He said the words formally, but there was compassion in his tone. "As a result, before these witnesses here, you are to be lawfully stripped of your ability to use Essence. After tonight you will not be welcome amongst the Gifted in Andarra - here, or anywhere else - without special dispensation from one of the Tols. Do you understand?"

  Leehim nodded, and for a split second Davian thought this might go more easily than it usually did.

  Then Leehim spoke, as everyone in his position did eventually.

  "Please," he said, his gaze sweeping around the room, eyes pleading. "Please, don't do this. Don't make me a Shadow. I made a mistake. It won't happen again."

  Elder Olin looked at him sadly as he stepped forward, a small black disc in his hand. "It's too late, lad."

  Leehim stared at him for a moment as if not comprehending, then shook his head. "No. Wait. Just wait." The tears began to trickle down his cheeks, and he bucked helplessly at his restraints. Davian looked away as he continued imploringly. "Please. Elder Olin. I won't survive as a Shadow. Elder Seandra. Just wait. I -"

  From the corner of his eye, Davian saw Elder Olin reach down and press the black disc against the skin on Leehim's neck.

  He forced himself to turn back and watch as the boy stopped mid-sentence. Only Leehim's eyes moved now; everything else was motionless. Paralysed.

  Elder Olin let go of the disc for a moment; it stuck to Leehim's neck as if affixed with glue. The Elder straightened, then looked over to Talean, who reluctantly nodded his confirmation.

  The Elder leaned down again, this time touching a single finger to the disc.

  "I'm sorry, Leehim," he murmured, closing his eyes.


  A nimbus of light coalesced around Elder Olin's hand; after a moment the glow started inching along his extended finger and draining into the disc.

  Leehim's entire body began to shake.

  It was just a little at first, barely noticeable, but then suddenly became violent as his muscles started to spasm. Talean gently put his hand on Leehim's shoulder, steadying the boy so his chair didn't topple.

  Elder Olin removed his finger from the disc after a few more seconds, but Leehim continued to convulse. Bile rose in Davian's throat as dark lines began to creep outward from Leehim's eyes, ugly black veins that seemed to crawl across his face, leeching the colour from his skin. A disfigurement that would be with Leehim for the rest of his life.

  Then the boy went limp, and it was over.

  Talean checked Leehim's vitals, then helped Elder Olin untie him. "Poor lad probably won't even remember getting caught," he said softly. He hesitated, then glanced over at Elder Seandra, who was still staring hollowly at Leehim's slumped form. "I'm sorry it came to this - I know you liked the lad. When he wakes up I'll give him some food and a few coins before I send him on his way."

  Seandra was silent for a moment, then nodded. "Thank-you, Administrator," she said quietly. "I appreciate that."

  Davian looked up as Elder Olin finished what he was doing and came to stand in front of the boys.

  "Are you all right?" he asked, the question clearly aimed at Davian more than Wirr.

  Davian swallowed, emotions churning, but nodded. "Yes," he lied.

  The Elder gave his shoulder a reassuring squeeze. "Thank-you for being here tonight. I know it can't have been easy." He nodded to the door. "Now. Both of you should go and get some rest."

  Davian and Wirr inclined their heads in assent, giving Leehim's limp form one last glance before exiting the Administrator's office.

  Wirr rubbed his forehead tiredly as they walked. "Want some company for a few minutes? There's no chance I'm going straight to sleep after that."

  Davian nodded. "You and me both."